Today I woke up to the rain beat

Today I woke up to the rain beat

Drew the drapes of my body upward to stand and walk


Today the women’s feet shook the wood

Rhythmic we stomped and floated the morning mother dance


Today we spoke of lost tomorrows

We might never see, we might never wake up into


Today I was quiet, counting hours

Spidered thoughts, little scared boats, down the routes unexplored


Tonight we made a talking circle

Listen, talk, listen, talk, all the ages, all the hurts


Tonight I lost track of the minutes

The house breathing out, the waiting for things to make sense


Tonight stomp-feet are gone, circle closed

Another day in this body. Sleep clawing me back


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